Oning

Another chapter of life ends
its time for my heart to start to mend..
Another page will turn
but in process,
I feel from within a burn..

Why does it have to always be like this?
I know that YOU,
I will really miss..
I just started thinking what might have been..
and as to why this relationship
didn't work again..
How happy could we be
If we had met personally..

How unlucky am I
to have this happen
not just once but
over and over again..

I think its me
I think its because of me
I hope its not only me..
Maybe relationships is just not meant for me..

Its difficult to love someone when you don't know how to love. I wish I knew how. Ever since my very first relationship, which lasted four years ended about four or five years ago, I find myself always having the following relationships end in a very short period of time. It seems like I'm not capable of loving fully and openly like I once did. Having my heart broken badly on my first relationship probably made me the person I am today. I get very jealous. I think I've become an insecure person. I've become a very selfish and childish.

In my recent relationship, I have hurt her in so many ways. Not a day goes by that we don't have fights. Of course being the self centered and jealous and selfish and insecure person I am, I'd always start the fights with her, even though it wasn't my intention. Is it a "trust" issue? Maybe it is.... Maybe thats part of what kind of a person I am today....

I wish I could turn back time when I knew how to love someone. I wish I could get back that feeling of loving unconditionally. I wish I could love someone with out hurting her. I'm not blaming all this on my first relationship that broke my heart but instead putting the blame on myself for becoming who I am and what I've become. I guess I chose to be like this. I chose to be defensive, jealous, selfish and insecure. I have to change myself before its too late and end up with no one and be lonely for the rest of my life....
I wish I knew how....
I wish I knew how to get myself back on track...
I wish I know how to love again...

For the person who I hurt so deeply, I'm very sorry...

I loved reading this article by Stacy Phillips. What she said about saying the phrase "I love you" the same old manner eventually loses its meaning is sadly true. Although I'm no married yet, I think she hit that right on the head so to speak. In her article she shares about what we should do to keep the relationship happy, exciting, sweet and of course still in love. Doing the same things or routine everyday like getting up and taking a shower, getting dressed and kissing your husband or wife on the cheek with a "love you" while on the way out the door gets old and stale.

Stacy has written 8 tips or advice for keeping your relationship like it just started.

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"Love is part of Life, only those who are willing to risk something will gain something at the end."

"There are some things in life you can be unsure of. Love should never be one of them."